I’ve never been a person that really wears makeup so a lot of people are surprised when they find out I decided to be a Mary Kay consultant. The thing is Mary Kay is about making you feel beautiful with or without make up. I used Mary Kay when we got married 10 years ago and felt gorgeous but I never felt the need to wear makeup.
To be completely honest I had probably worn makeup 10-15 times in the last 10 years. Most of which were for weddings or family pictures. As I got closer to 30 I noticed I was starting to get wrinkles and I needed to take better care of my skin. I’m really busy though and kept saying next week I’ll start.
Most of the time I looked like the picture above. Beautiful with or without makeup but I wasn’t really trying. Most of the time I also avoided pictures because I didnt like the way I looked. I also suffer from secondary infertility. Kinda a random place to just throw this in but its important for this next part.
Most people dont know that fertility treatments can effect your hairs ability to accept dye. I used to dye my hair before we did fertility treatments but now I cant. For my 30th birthday I decided to get my eyebrows dyed. Having blonde hair my eyebrows are super light. Not having eyebrows always made me feel like my makeup wasnt finished which kept me from wanting to do it. Well it didnt work due to fertility treatments.
We have done 2 embryos transfers in the last 6 months. The first one was a chemical miscarriage, but the second everything looked like it was going great.
We got a positive test 1 week after the embryo transfer and the numbers looked great on the first blood draw. They were so good in fact that Charlie and I would talk about twins. A week later at the second blood draw the numbers were a little lower than expected but not bad. I kept having to get blood draws for the next 10 days every 2 days while the doctors tried to figure out what was going on. One didnt want to five up hope and one thought it was ectopic from the beginning. Unfortunately she ended up being right and on March 25th I got a call saying I had to come get a methotrexate shot that day as the pregnancy was ectopic and attached to both my fallopian tube and uterus.
The methotrexate messed me up. My skin hurt, my body hurt, but most of all my mental and emotional health was in the toilet. This was my 10th miscarriage. I was depressed and I just wasn’t able to pull myself out of it.
My doctor recommended that I find something just for me. I needed to do something where I had to start to like my self again. One of my friends at work knew what was going on and gave me some Marykay samples to help me feel better. One of the first things I tried was the charcoal mask.
I loved it right away. The black heads on my nose that never go away did with one use of this mask. I then ordered the brow tint and for the first time in my life I had eyebrows and felt like my makeup was complete.
I started to play with eye shadows and foundation and quickly realized that I would do a look I love in less than 10 minutes. The other amazing thing was doing my makeup helped with my depression. It wasnt about the makeup though. It was about having to look at myself in the eyes. I realized I hadn’t been doing that. Looking myself in the eyes every day helped me to accept what had happened and love myself.
I realized that if it had helped me so much then I wanted to help others. So I became a Mary kay consultant. I’ve been able to help those around me feel beautiful in their own skin. I like to focus on taking care of yourself instead of the makeup.
Yes I’m still super busy and a lot of times it’s hard to get everything done but I love what Mary Kay has given me. I have had to get out of my comfort zone and talk to more people. That has been a huge blessing in my life and I will always appreciate it. Marykay.com/ebush10
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