So if you read the Why Mary Kay post I talked about my ectopic pregnancy. What I didnt go into was that the methotrexate didn’t work for me completely. My numbers dropped but it was kind of slow. The hardest part was I was sick and bleeding for 2 months. I kept asking if this was normal and I was assured it was.
After 2 months I had an ultrasound to see if there was any damage. The ultrasound showed that I still had retained products of conception. Oh how I hate that phrase! Anyways no one in the office got back to me that day and then Monday after the ultrasound was Memorial day. Tuesday I just couldn’t take it anymore and I stopped calling and went in person. The lady at the front desk said it could be 10 days before the surgery scheduler reached out and they might have me wait til the end of the month for surgery. I asked for my records as I would be going to a different doctor if this was the case because I had been in pain, sock and bleeding for 2 months. It had actually gotten to the point I considered asking for a hysterectomy. Demanding my paperwork got me a call and surgery was scheduled for 2 days later.
My mom was out of town but she helped get everything situated. My sister and my dad took the boys which was such a huge blessing and help. My doctor couldn’t do the surgery but my sister’s doctor could. I was relieved that it was her since it couldn’t be my doctor. Having unique anatomy has made things interesting in the past so I was glad it was a doctor who knew my situation. I remember meeting her and then the next thing I knew was the anesthesiologist telling me it was time to wake up.
They had me walk to the recovery room and the first thing I noticed was that I could sit down without pain. I didn’t feel sick anymore either. They came in and told me there had been some tissue in a ball that had been sent out for pathology and there had also been some polyps. She had been able to remove everything so as soon as we got the pathology back we could look at doing another transfer.
It took 26 days to hear back on the pathology results. The tissue was neurotic so I have to take medication for the next month and then we will reassesse after that. I have felt so much better than I did before the surgery. I am almost back to the me before physically. There are days and times that I really struggle emotionally still. I would be 19 weeks along now if everything had worked out. I would know if the baby was a boy or a girl. I know everything happens for a reason and hopefully someday I’ll understand why with this one.
Most of my other miscarriages I have been able to look back and see why it happened the way that it did. The miscarriage before Chris mad it so Chris came while I was on break from school. This was really important since I was on bed rest with him for so long. Spencer needed to come when he did. The medication that has made such a difference in his life was approved for 12+ the month before he was born. He was the first 2 year old put on it in Utah as he turned 2 a week before it was approved. Without this medication his quality of life would be so different. The miscarriage before Mason had to happen. Spencer ended up with psuedo on his first birthday. I had miscarried just before. If I had been pregnant while he was being treated for pseudo I couldn’t have taken care of him as the medication is harmful to a fetus. I dont know why this miscarriage happened or why we have to wait longer but I do hope that someday it will make sense.
A Garden and a Bush 